When I was away...
I missed everything.
I missed your protection.
I missed your passion for the little things in life.
I missed your ignorance.
I missed your lack of patience in waiting rooms, or in traffic.
I missed your ability to love the little snail on the sidewalk.
I missed your scent, eyes, lips, and heart.
I missed your kindness.
I missed your intelligence.
I missed your completely insane weirdness.
I missed every little particle of your being.
You and your soul.
Your everything. I missed it all.
I want it all. I need it all.
And I would sit on the train and listen to the songs and the sounds and sometimes the lyrics and just think of you. And I would miss all those things over and over again as each song changed. And it would kill me. I remember day dreaming a lot. Day dreaming we were together... laughing in the sun. Laying with each other. Looking into each others eyes. And it would help. It would bring me back to our life. Us. Together. And I knew things were changing just like you did. But I thought they were changing for the worse because I had no idea what this pain in my stomach and heart meant. I lived for the moments I heard your voice over the phone. That sweet, strong voice. I knew it then. And I know it now. And I will remember the change forever. And remember how much I missed you. And how much I needed you. And wanted you there. And I will remember and it will be there in my memory locked away if anything were to ever change again. But moments like these are what makes life worth living. And this I will never forget.

Love Always,
Penny Lane.