Slow Dancing.

"Be the grandest version of the greatest vision you ever had about who you are."

I wish I knew what the grandest version of my greatest vision about myself was. Sometimes it's so hard to figure and find out who you are; what your purpose is. Why you're here. What you're supposed to accomplish... I hate how hard it is to find that. Shouldn't it be an easy journey? Maybe it should... but it's certainly not. Why is it so much easier to not have any goals then it is to have them and take the risk of either failing or succeeding, or even worse, quiting? I've always wondered this, and I don't know why. But I find myself going over this question over and over again in my head. Throughout my entire day. I find myself wondering if what i'm doing was the right decision for myself. If I took the right leap of faith. And all I really want is for someone to tell me it was the right decision. Or if I could just see my future... and where I am placed in it. I wish it was much more simple. I wish I wish I wish. God, that isn't going to help me is it. Wishing and wanting. Those fucking words and thoughts don't get you anywhere. The Dalai Lama once said... "The purpose of life is to be happy." How do we find our own happiness when our entire lives consist of trying to "be something" worth while. Or just trying to be better. I feel like life is just a big competition. And I hate that because with competition, it's hard to find the happiness. The great, insane, happiness, that our lives are suppose to consist of. I hate how society has become. Maybe i'm just whining. But i'm just trying to find something more. Something more. That's the only sane way I can seem to put it. Maybe i've just been smoking to many cigarettes and working my ass off to become "something worth while".

"Be the grandest version of the greatest vision you ever had about who you are"... I sit here on my comfy, cheep, twin bed, starring at this damn quote plastered on my white wall. Trying to make sense of it. Trying to make sense of anything I suppose... End.

Love.
Penny Lane.

First.

Let it be, eh? So how exactly does one 'let it be'. Does it have to do with letting things go and just feeling content about something, anything? Or is it more the saying of 'this too shall pass...'? Either way, it makes for an incredible Beatles song. These words have shaped the person I have become. Whatever that means. It doesn't matter really. Words are just words... but the feeling you get from understanding them is a totally different thing. Just like the feeling you get when you read a really amazing book. You feel like it's you whose going through it all and you who is living in that story. You cry because you can feel their emotion, you get mad because they did something you know they'll regret. But, in the end they are just words, aren't they? Words on a old, yellow, dusty, piece of paper. But those words can save someone's life. They can create an adventure that you thought was never possible. You can escape from your own reality and be in a world you always wanted for yourself. So well, letting things be, I guess would be this. Let yourself be whatever and whoever you want. Never second guess yourself, and just have some trust. Have a little damn faith. And well... let it be. I guess when you think about it the words are pretty self explanatory, right? They are right there, staring at you, and you can't take your eyes off them. End.

Love.
Penny Lane.